08.18.09
Memories from the Past – My Meditation Journey
From August 2nd to 8th, I was attending Bali Usada’s Usada Tapa Brata 1 for one full week. It was a health meditation program. For more information about the program:
A seven-day intensive course where participants are requested to leave all the daily routine to stay isolated from outside world under the Tri-Tapa rules: no talking, no reading, and no writing.
A training to build up concentration, an exercise to develop awareness and mindfulness to strengthen harmonious mind and loving kindness.
You will be trained to understand the healing process through harmonious mind.This meditation is for beginners, also for those having completed the Usada Regular/ Private I.
I was quite proud of myself for being able to follow the Tri-Tapa rules of not talking, reading nor writing during the course. On top of those three rules, we were only provided with two vegetarian meals and one snack a day. At the beginning of the course I was not sure that I would be able to do it, but it became easier with each passing day. At the end of the course, I actually enjoyed it so much and I was reluctant to talk because talking and hearing loud noises gave me headache.
Out of 46 participants, only five of us really adhered to the rules. I was glad that my roommate was also very committed to the rules, otherwise I might not be able to succeed. It shows how important it is to have supportive people around us in order to succeed.
The most amazing thing that happened to me during this course was uncovering a memory buried so deep in my subconscious mind, a memory that I didn’t remember having, yet it surfaced during the course.
This is the story…
On the fourth day when we started to meditate with a purpose of feeling our own body, I felt a pain on my back. It felt like being cut and stabbed with a sword or a saber, it was about 25cm long and located on the left of my spine. When I focused on the pain, it throbbed and became more painful, but the pain was gone when I finished a session. If I didn’t meditate, I felt no pain, but whenever I started meditating, the pain came back.
I was curious and when I asked the instructor, he told me to keep focusing on the pain. During meditation, I kept focusing on the pain and the more I focused, the pain became smaller until it felt like a small dot next to my spine. Although it became smaller, it also became more painful and unbearable. I felt like being shot or stabbed, it was hot and throbbing. Yet when I finished meditating, I could not feel the pain at all.
During the open meditation session, I was committed to really focus on it and I resolved to meditate until I found the cause of the pain. So I did. I focused, focused and focused on that one extremely painful dot until suddenly I saw in my mind, pictures of my grandmother and me when I was just a baby. I saw her holding me as well as sitting next to my baby crib. I must have been less than a year old because my grandmother passed away in 1977 when I was only one year old. I could feel how she poured her love, her hope and her dream to me. I felt a flood of emotions rushing through me, emotions of love, gentleness, kindness and hope as well as hate, anger and unwillingness to let go. When I felt all these emotions, I could not stop the tears from flowing, I just cried and cried until I could not breathe through my nose.
At that moment I could really feel her love, how she put her hopes and dreams into me…she wanted to leave a legacy through me. Suddenly I understood why I was so driven to make a difference and to leave a legacy. It was not only my desire but it was also my grandmother’s desire that she passed to me before she died.
On the other hand, I also felt her anger, hate, attachment and unwillingness to let go. I could understand her feelings because I would be the only grandchild that she would be able to see and hold because of her illness. She was not ready to let go and I could feel those emotions flooding through my heart.
After all those feelings and memories came rushing through me, I felt a sense of relief, calm and clear-headedness. Suddenly everything seemed to make sense and I understood my life. I felt at peace with a part of me that I didn’t realize I had. It was such a wonderful feeling.
At the end of the course, I was asked to share my experience in front of the class. I did not share this story because I had not verify it with my parents. Therefore when I met my parents a day later in Jakarta, I asked them whether those memories were true and those things really happened. They said that those memories were true and real. Wow…it was simply amazing! Consciously I had no memory of what happened when I was just a baby, but meditation helped me to remember something buried so deep in my subconscious mind.
One more thing, after those memories surfaced, the pain on my back was almost gone. The pain was completely gone after I told my father this story. Believe it or not, it was like my grandmother wanted me to pass a message to my father.
How do I feel after all this? I feel at peace. I feel so calm, serene. I feel that I know and understand myself better. I feel a sense of relief, a burden lifted. I feel happy.
Finally, I really recommend all of you to take this course. I’d say that this is one of the best courses that I have attended in my whole life and I’ve attended a lot…from Anthony Robbins’ Unleash the Power Within and Date with Destiny to T. Harv Eker’s courses, as well as numerous trainings and seminars held in Singapore and Indonesia for the last 18 years.
I would like to end this post with what the founder of Bali Usada, Mr. Merta Ada often says at the end of a meditation session:
“May all beings be happy!”
Inge Santoso, B. Com
04.21.09
Live The Life You Are Meant to Live
Last week, I attended Train The Trainer in Singapore. This program is part of T Harv Eker’s programs. This Train The Trainer program is delivered by Blair Singer. This is one of the best trainings I’ve ever attended in the last 18 years.
This training has improved my training skill significantly. I have been a good trainer, but this course has put me in the path of becoming an awesome trainer.
Since I attended my first life changing seminar, More Precious Than Gold (MPTG) Seminar in 1991, I have always wanted to become a trainer. When I was mentored by KG Lim to become a trainer in 2001, it was a dream come true for me. When I became one of the trainers for More Precious Than Gold seminar from 2001-2005, that was the best time in my life. I was living my dream – I felt that I’ve made a difference in the lives of thousands of people all over Indonesia.
Due to unfortunate course of events, I could not stay with the MPTG team anymore. I felt devastated. I felt that I lost something so precious in my life. Although I’ve conducted many great seminars since 2005 until now, MPTG still has a special place in my heart, it’s like my first love. Sometimes I wonder whether I would ever get over it.
Everything in life happened for a reason!
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11)
In Train the Trainer, it becomes very clear to me that my life calling, my life purpose is to teach. I have tried many different things, but somehow I was lead to the teaching path again and again. I cannot run away from it. This is who I am. This is what I am supposed to do. This is the life I am meant to live!
Just like what Blair Singer said: “You can’t be whoever you want to be. You can be whoever you’re supposed to be”
The biggest lesson that I got from Train the Trainer is that: Live the life you are meant to live. Find you life calling, your life purpose, your life mission. Then do your best to live and serve others according to your life purpose. There may be detours along the journey, but remember to stay true to your heart, heed your life’s calling!
Learn and Grow!
How many of you have discovered your life callings? How many of you are unsure about your life callings?
I have a powerful tool that can help you to find your life calling in less than 30 minutes. If you are interested, please contact me or leave a comment and I’ll help you.
11.28.08
The Millionaire Mind Intensive in UK
I’ve been writing about Millionaire Mind Intensive Seminar that was held in Singapore earlier this month. I really learned a lot from this seminar. If you live in UK or Europe, you have a chance to attend this great seminar in London. The seminar will be held on 3rd-5th April 2009 in ExCel London – UK. There is a special rate for applying before 31st December 2008. For more information, you can click here.
11.23.08
Being A Good Receiver
During Millionaire Mind Intensive in Singapore, I learned that to be rich in every area of our lives, we also need to learn to be a good receiver.
I’ve heard the saying “It is better to give than to receive” over and over again for so long, . It is originated from a verse in the Bible “It is more blessed to give than to receive” Acts 20:35 (NIV). I’ve always believed it and I’ve never questioned it before.
Since it is more blessed to give, giving seems to be more superior than receiving, so we strive to give. We tend to look down on receivers and we feel guilty even ashamed when we receive. How can we be rich and wealthy if we feel guilty or ashamed for receiving money, blessing or help from others?
Sometimes when we receive something, we feel obligated to give back even more because we want to be the blessed one. We also want to return the favor as soon as possible so that we do not feel indebted. For example, when we receive a compliment “Wow, you look great”, instead of simply saying “Thank you”, we often return the compliment straight away saying “Hey, you look great too”.
In the seminar, I learned that giving and receiving are two sides of the same coin. A giver needs a receiver and to be a receiver there must be a giver. A giver is not superior and a receiver is not inferior. We must learn to be both a generous giver and an excellent, grateful receiver.
Being a good receiver means that instead of feeling guilty when we receive something, we feel grateful. We let the giver feel the pleasure of giving and be thanked for their generosity. Next time, if someone gives you something, just say thank you gracefully and give thanks to God for the blessings. If you want to return the favor, do it at later time and be a generous giver expecting nothing in return.
Some cautions: since not everybody understands this concept of being a good receiver, you may encounter some awkward moments when you put this into practice. For example, if your spouse, boyfriend, or girlfriend says “Darling, I love you” and you simply say “Thank you” without saying “I love you” back…you can be in big trouble HAHAHA. In order to avoid this situation, please ask them to read this blog post 
Thank you for reading.
Learn and Grow!
PS. Yesterday I received lunch blessing from friends at Atria, so thank you. This morning I received another breakfast blessing from Church friends at Soto Kirana, thank you to both of you. God bless.
11.10.08
The Millionaire Mind Intensive Singapore Day 3
I took this photo at the end of the course yesterday. When I was going to post this photo, I realized something very important that is really the essence of this training. It is that:
The secret of the millionaire mind is that your inner world creates your outer world.
It is also true for any area of your life that your inner world creates your outer world. What you have right now is the result of your beliefs, thoughts and feelings in the past. If you do not like what you see and you believe that you are capable of so much more, then start working on your inner world (mental, emotional and spiritual).
We often focus too much on changing the results by learning new skills and strategies, but we forget to work on our beliefs and values. It is like treating the symptoms of the disease rather than the cause.
On the other hand, It does not mean that you neglect learning new skills or strategies. There has to be a balance. You must work on both!
If you ask me about this seminar, I can tell you that it is awesome, fun, very useful and practical. In the last three days I had a lot of revelations, AHA moments, emotional release, as well as validations of what I did right. My inner landscape is being revamped and redesigned. I pulled the weeds out and sowed new seeds of success.
Since the method of the seminar is experiential learning, if you want to learn, you really have to experience it yourself. I can tell you what I learn but it will be superficial. You need to experience it to get the learning into your cell.
There will be another Millionaire Mind Intensive course in Singapore and Malaysia next year. If you are interested, I can help and guide you to get into the course. Please email me at: ingesantoso(at)hotmail.com
Learn and Grow!
11.09.08
The Millionaire Mind Intensive Singapore Day 2
The second day of the seminar is more interesting than the first one. There are more hands-on experience and application of what we have learned.
The most memorable moment for me was when we did a pattern interrupt. I had a negative belief about money that when my parents gave me money, I was going to lose it. Harv Eker asked us to visualize and reflect how these negative beliefs had cost us in life, then intensify the feeling…while we were doing it very seriously, he played a recording of people giggling and laughing. When I heard it, I actually started giggling, I even found it hard to stop laughing because other people also started laughing in waves. I could not hold the image in my mind anymore, the negative pattern was interrupted! Whenever I think about this negative belief, I just start to laugh all over again.
I’ve done pattern interruptions in other seminars before this one. This is by far the most effective!
I felt to so relieved to get rid of this one belief because it has haunted me for years. I used to feel so guilty when I ‘caused’ my parents to lose a large amount money in several investments in the past. I said ‘caused’ because my parents invested the money to help or support me. The ones that hurt the most was the FYI investment. Although they made the decision to invest by themselves, yet I felt guilty because if I were not a factor, then they would not have made that investment. There were other investments that I also felt guilty because I thought I had influenced them to start and I did not try hard enough to stop them when it did not work out. So much guilt and burden to carry around, but yesterday I finally released them. I feel so much lighter afterwards.
I believe that this feeling of guilt has stopped me from taking bigger responsibility and reaching my potential because I was afraid that it would happen again. The mixed emotions of guilt, fear and hurt had confined me in my comfort zone. No more! Now I am free!
Learn from my mistake and grow!
Inge Santoso
11.08.08
The Millionaire Mind Intensive Singapore Day 1
Yesterday I started to attend T Harv Eker’s seminar The Millionaire Mind Intensive.
What have I learned so far?
- I discovered my money blueprint and how it had held me back from achieving success and becoming wealthier
- Some negative beliefs that I have about money must be unlearned and replaced with more positive ones
- I understand money management better and I know how I can use it to improve my current system
- Money attracts money. Start creating your money magnet.
- Love and nurture your investment golden goose. Gather and grow your passive business income geese.
Learn and Grow!
10.15.08
Blog Action Day – Poverty
Today is Blog Action Day and the topic this year is about poverty. I am joining other bloggers around the world to write about poverty.
What can I do to help and make a difference?
As a teacher and coach, I usually seize the opportunity to talk about personal finance with my students whenever the opportunity arises. I see a need to teach them about personal finance because:
- Almost all of my university students have no clue about managing their finances;
- They may have heard about interest, yet they do not know the power of compound interest;
- They do not know the danger of consumer debts;
- Negative beliefs about money are prevalent. Scarcity mentality can be found everywhere.
I have a 3-hour seminar about personal finance for young executives, students and teenagers. It is called “The Secret to be A Billionaire” (Billionaire is the new standard for wealth here in Indonesia because almost everybody is a millionaire ha ha ha) I use some of the basic principles written in the book “The Automatic Millionaire” by David Bach and combine them with other financial tips from various sources. I talk about savings, basic investment strategies, reducing debts, giving and shifting beliefs about money.
I want to be given the opportunity by various universities and schools in Solo to give this seminar to their students, so I can help and make a difference by equipping the next generation with better financial knowledge and skills. I hope that by learning about personal finance, they can become catalysts for breaking the vicious circle of poverty.
Learn and Grow!
Inge Santoso, B. Com for Blog Action Day 2008
06.26.08
Whistle While You Work – Heeding Your Life’s Calling
I have just finished preparing for my presentation which will be held at GSJA Injil Sepenuh tonight. The topic is “Whistle While You Work, Heeding Your Life’s Calling” based on a book with the same title by Richard J. Leider and David A. Shapiro.
Last week, I prepared the presentation on different topic “Living a Positive Life” but two nights ago, suddenly I felt that the topic of heeding life’s calling was more appropriate.
The objective of the seminar is to understand the importance of motivation and to have a motivation to serve. I believe that living our life’s calling is the ultimate motivation because when we do what we are called to do, what we are good at, what we love to do, then the motivation is automatically there.
While preparing for this topic, I did the exercise of finding my calling card. The exercise really helped me to clarify my calling. My calling is to put things together and to advance ideas that empower others to discover and develop their potential through performing events.
When I asked my family and friends to do the exercise, they also found it very valuable. It can be an eye-opening experience for some people because they can see how everything seems to fit together. I’ve also seen people having an A-HA moment when they realize what their calling is, sometimes for the first time in their lives.
I have the desire to help more people to discover and heed their callings through seminars and coaching so that I can take part in making this world a better and happier place.
Learn and Grow!
06.16.08
Release Any Attachment to the Results of Good Actions
Yesterday when I re-attended Silva Method Basic Lecture Series, I drew a message card and on the card, it was written:
To reach out with love, to do your best and not be so concerned with results or outcomes – that’s the way to live.
I release any attachment to the results of my good actions.
This card rings so true to my situation at the moment. I’ve been so worried about what the outcome would be if I took any action. I worried about whether I would fail and disappoint people, whether I would be good enough to do what I wanted to do, and so on. This fear prevented me from taking action and moving forward. My fear of getting hurt also stopped me from reaching out with love. Living with these fears is like being trapped in a vicious circle because the more I don’t take action, the worse I feel about myself and this feeling makes me doubt myself and my abilities to take actions.
What do I learn from this? Living with fear is NOT the way to live! I’ve had enough! No more!
Now is the time to live my life!
Last week I dreamed that I was given just one more year to live. If it is true, what kind of life will I have in the next 365 days? What will I do in the next 365 days? Time suddenly becomes so precious and I must live my life to the fullest, make a difference, leave a legacy!
Now is the time to live my life!
I don’t want to worry about what will happen later because nobody can actually predict or know what is going to happen in the very next moment in life anyway. I just do my best in everything that I do and reach out with love and let God take care of the outcome.
I want to share this story with you because I want you to ask yourself the same questions.
How do you really want to live your life? What kind of life do you want to create for yourself and for the people close to you?
Have you live your life to your best potential? If not, it’s not too late. You still have today to something about it. Do it now!
Learn and Grow!
